Have you ever cried so hard on your bike in aero position that you have a steady stream of tears, meeting the sweat running off your chin followed by a river of snot? If you haven't, I highly recommend it. 10x 2minutes hard, 1 minute easy. I would just get my breathing back in time to get back down on the bars and as soon as my exertion increased so did the torrent. I was sobbing so hard, i felt like i was turning inside out, and through it all, i pushed my legs more than i ever had, it was like I wasn't releasing enough emotion, I needed some more pain to take my anguish to a new level.
On the weekend, the healthy principal of our school died of a heart attack. He was one of those really great guys, with one of those amazing marriages. Our small school is like a family and the loss was a serious blow to everyone. There was over 1000 people at his funeral. His wife looked absolutely radiant, reflecting all of the love pouring out to her and her husband.
My best friend's husband is battling stage four lung cancer. They have three young kids. We did our first triathlon together and i have only done one triathlon in 6 years without her.I was at the birth of two of her kids, she lives two blocks away, we met in our first week of college 23 years ago. Her name is Jody and she is amazing. I love her and I hate cancer.
I seriously needed a release, I got it.
By the time I cooled down, I was filled with an incredible sense of peace.
The hours we enter in our workout log don't always show the true measure of a great workout.
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That's so sad. Life is so precious, and it just kills me inside to see people wasting it. You only go round once in life, and none us know when the ride is gonna stop.
When people complain about all the problems they have in life, I think about the people who've been told they're dying of a fatal disease. They have problems. The rest of us have lifestyle choices.
life sux sometimes doesn it? The anguish you are undergoing right now is unfortunate. And I can certainly empathize with you...hang in there
Keith, life is precious, it sounds like a cliche but it is so true. During my training, this concept is in my head,and looking at my training schedule I have never felt "What do i HAVE to do today?" I truly feel, "what do i GET to do today?" AS it gets more heavy duty, I may turn into a big whiner, but I don't think so, I think I will continue to feel more blessed as the training intensifies.
Jon, thanks for your empathy, although funny enough I am not feeling like life sucks. Life is amazing, and through these difficult times I am getting great inspiration to get living my best possible life.
p.s. i do still think cancer and dying at 51 is fucking bullshit!
"what do I GET to do today?" That is such a great attitude. I haven't quite expressed it that way, but it's good. There are so many people that can't even walk around the block and would love to be able to, and it doesn't matter if it's their fault or not.
I am sorry to hear that.
Btw I have had those trainer sessions too.
Sometimes - when you don't expect it - you will get a theraputic, emotional purge. Sometimes, you have no idea what is laying just beaneath the surface, time alone training, pushing yourself, etc can be just enough to break dams. So sorry to hear this. See you wed.
Somehow, after reading Jenna's comment, I am inescabably reminded of Chuck's posts shortly before his Marathon trip. Graphic as they were.
Sorry, but that's my weird sense of humour.
That's not to minimize or mock the pain you are feeling.
You are right, there are times when the best place for me to think is when I am on my bike or pounding the pavement on a run. It is really a psychological and emotional release for me sometimes.
Great post.
hey keith, no worries, love that kind of sense of humor, that is me in a nutshell, we will get along just great!! cheers!
I just had to comment again, to bring you up to 10 comments. It's such a nice round number. Besides, I was accused of being a comment hog on another blog, so I had to burn off the frustration about commenting on some other blog, and you won.
How did your Hypothermic Half go? Jenna says you were running so fast you left an ice slick behind.
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